tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-28805915321954990782024-02-20T08:58:26.815-08:00Kayla's Writings- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.comBlogger28125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-50648188272652691802011-07-25T07:47:00.001-07:002011-07-25T07:47:16.611-07:00Teasing Dance and ShowerYou've been so good <br/> How about a treat <br/> Sit in that chair <br/> I'll give you a dance <br/> My only rule is don't touch <br/> Turning on some music <br/> I dance to the beat <br/> Taking off my clothes <br/> Piece by piece <br/> When i'm free i come closer <br/> Remember now don't touch <br/> I grind against each leg <br/> Before rubbing myself <br/> Against your lap <br/> Moaning as i feel <br/> You through your jeans <br/> I unbutton your pants <br/> Getting off your lap <br/> Bending over taking the zipper <br/> Between my lips <br/> Pulling it down slowly <br/> One hand freeing you <br/> From your prison <br/> I start grinding in your lap again <br/> Teasing your manhood against my opening <br/> Your hands grab my waist <br/> Uh oh your in trouble now <br/> I start rubbing harder against you <br/> Not letting you in <br/> Then quick as can be i hop of and run <br/> The shower is where you find me <br/> Oh i'm in trouble now <br/> I see it in your eyes <br/> Dropping of your clothes <br/> You come on in and join me <br/> You've taken control <br/> Pushing me back against the wall <br/> Pulling one of my legs up <br/> Holding yourself at my opening <br/> Making me wiggle and beg <br/> Thrusting in without warning <br/> Assaulted by pleasure <br/> Wild and primal thrusting <br/> My punishment i enjoy <br/> Hitting the right spot again and again <br/> Making me orgasam <br/> Still not stopping <br/> Only hitting harder and faster <br/> Until we both explode <br/> Panting and sweaty <br/> Standing under the water <br/> We wash each other <br/> Slow moving hands <br/> I think we may be in the shower for awhile<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-13361218494186674462011-07-20T13:46:00.001-07:002011-07-20T13:46:42.496-07:00Chocolate SexI dip my paint brush <br/> Into the warm chocolate <br/> Dripping a little onto my thigh <br/> Bending over and licking it off <br/> Oh yes this will taste better on you <br/> You are tied to the table <br/> Exactly where you need to be <br/> You will be my dessert tonight <br/> Climbing up onto the table with you <br/> Only wearing my knee high boots <br/> One leg on each side of you <br/> Bending over and brushing your lips <br/> Then licking off the chocolate <br/> Each stroke of my brush going lower <br/> Every lick going slower <br/> Taking my time savoring the flavor <br/> Till i get to the real prize <br/> Already at full attention <br/> Begging for my brush and tongue <br/> A little strock across the tip <br/> My tongue quickly following <br/> A moan escaping my lips <br/> I got a taste of your sweetness in that lick <br/> Greedy little me wanting more <br/> I brush chocolate slowly <br/> All over your manhood <br/> Full out moaning now <br/> As i take you in my mouth <br/> Tongue flicking all around <br/> Licking and sucking off the chocolate <br/> Your sweetness exploding in my mouth <br/> As i greedily swallow the flavor of chocolate sex<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-83268825496352798452011-05-28T15:23:00.001-07:002011-05-28T15:23:00.609-07:00Suicide RunningSuicide running <br/> Running till i'm numb <br/> Sides are acheing <br/> Breathing in gasps <br/> Legs burning <br/> Face red <br/> Sweat pouring <br/> Still going <br/> Must forget it all <br/> Release the rage <br/> Two second breather <br/> Can't stop <br/> Need the pain <br/> Release the anger <br/> Suicide running <br/> Till i drop <br/> Pass out <br/> No stoping till then <br/> Head pounding <br/> Heart bursting <br/> Stupid people <br/> Past repeating <br/> Can't stop it <br/> Full of anger <br/> Trying to run it out<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-79824834593229804022011-05-28T15:19:00.001-07:002011-05-28T15:19:32.973-07:00AngerPushed pushed pushed <br/> Took all your crap <br/> Held my tounge in check <br/> My temper is <br/> Rising rising rising <br/> To the boiling point <br/> Loseing my control <br/> Slam slam slam <br/> You up against the wall <br/> Can't hold back no <br/> More more more <br/> Your driving me insane <br/> All your little <br/> Games games games <br/> Messed with me <br/> To many damn times <br/> I'm not your little <br/> Toy toy toy <br/> One hand against your <br/> Kneck kneck kneck <br/> The other slaming <br/> Against your face <br/> Again again again <br/> Not a simple rage <br/> Full out anger <br/> Pushed to many times <br/> Scream scream scream <br/> No one is coming <br/> To help you now <br/> Shouldn't have cornered me <br/> You knew i would snap <br/> Bitch bitch bitch <br/> I only see red <br/> Anger so damn high <br/> Whole body shakeing <br/> As i walk <br/> Away away away <br/> Your are damn lucky <br/> Your not worth my time<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-78852989649102150702011-05-21T19:42:00.001-07:002011-05-21T19:42:02.935-07:00InsanityWalk the line of insanity <br/> Test your demons power <br/> Slip into the unknown <br/> Make your way free <br/> Of what should be <br/> Follow me to your insanity <br/> A world between it all <br/> Walk the balance between <br/> Right & wrong... Good & evil <br/> Loose yourself in between <br/> Escape the world of the sane <br/> Where there is nothing to gain <br/> Make the unknown your home <br/> Welcome to my escape <br/> This world of insanity<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-38613760358540806892011-05-21T19:37:00.001-07:002011-05-21T19:37:53.982-07:00DownBrought to my knees <br/> By a thousand sins <br/> Not of my own <br/> Twisted is fate <br/> Which damned me to life <br/> Fighting for a balance <br/> Left hanging in between <br/> Slipping into insanity <br/> Voices in my head <br/> Driving me to the edge<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-23947798465787327012011-05-21T19:31:00.001-07:002011-05-21T19:31:12.123-07:00DayEach day that goes bye <br/> Is just another lie <br/> Hidden inside the dream <br/> I'm not allowed to scream <br/> To break down and cry <br/> Would be to give up and die <br/> Suppressing all these things <br/> Just wanting back my wings <br/> But i must stand here <br/> Shedding not a single tear <br/> As this dream comes crashing<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-18439252679006407852011-05-21T19:28:00.001-07:002011-05-21T19:28:41.459-07:00GraveSweet grave <br/> Take me away <br/> Bury me deep <br/> Where no one <br/> Can find me <br/> Unmarked grave <br/> Becoming one <br/> With the earth <br/> Food for the worms <br/> Feasting on my flesh <br/> No more life <br/> Sweet blissful end <br/> Giving me no more <br/> Pain <br/> The end to it all <br/> Wish me goodbye <br/> For the grave <br/> Is here <br/> To take me away<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-28177489950664233802011-05-21T19:26:00.001-07:002011-05-21T19:26:15.097-07:00RememberingI remember it all <br/> Wish it would disappear <br/> Leave me alone <br/> But it floods back <br/> Again and again <br/> Each memory of pain <br/> Haunting me each day <br/> Wouldn't even know <br/> If i hadn't said so <br/> I keep it so locked <br/> Only i know the pain <br/> Letting it out in bursts <br/> My mind has been tainted <br/> By each hurt memory <br/> Lashing of a belt <br/> Little red cut lines <br/> Crying into the night <br/> Left with unanswered prayers <br/> Alone half the time <br/> No one ever knew <br/> What passed through my life <br/> Each tear <br/> A different memory <br/> Pushed away to the side <br/> The memories taint my mind <br/> Twisted and black <br/> Covering me till i die<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-46939672070972221382010-12-16T19:25:00.001-08:002010-12-16T19:25:30.527-08:00DrinkingYeah i drink <br/> For my own reason <br/> What do you care <br/> It keeps me happy <br/> You wouldn't understand <br/> All the pain i have <br/> Buried deep down in a hole <br/> A hole i use to be in <br/> But you didn't know that either <br/> Couldn't tell i was dying inside <br/> Just thought i was moody <br/> Little do you know <br/> Behind my mask of a smile <br/> I'm crying in pain <br/> Telling lies to myself <br/> Saying i have no pain <br/> It doesn't help<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-76182857847601819792010-12-16T19:24:00.001-08:002010-12-16T19:24:17.505-08:00the things <br/> Divided inside <br/> I'm comeing undone <br/> Torn apart <br/> Feelings i can't hide <br/> But you don't see <br/> What's happened to me <br/> Your blind to it all <br/> I don't let you know <br/> Try not to let it show <br/> I'm looseing control <br/> Deep down inside <br/> There's no place to hide <br/> Torn apart <br/> Divided into thoughts <br/> All at war <br/> I'm looseing my mind <br/> Can't stop this now <br/> I'm comeing apart<div style='clear: both; 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font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-1246509597819604102010-12-12T11:08:00.001-08:002010-12-12T11:08:43.838-08:00Where i amWell this is it <br/> I sit down and write <br/> With no purpose or cause <br/> Most my pain is gone <br/> The darkness has left <br/> Now it's the sun thats so blinding <br/> I often feel lonely <br/> Still get sad and blue <br/> But i know i won't stay that way <br/> I'll bounce back up again <br/> My smiles are more often <br/> And they're even real now <br/> I remember that dark hole <br/> But i don't want to go back <br/> I know next week i'll probably rage <br/> Wish the world to go to hell <br/> But thats not what i want <br/> I know i'm on the right path <br/> I've even got some help <br/> I am were i want to be<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-50015539077374255152010-12-11T18:18:00.001-08:002010-12-11T18:18:06.262-08:00The StoryWhat broke her inside <br/> Was a battle over years <br/> Strained and Stressed for freedom <br/> Lost in the dark of a deep hole <br/> Left to grow old, rot, and die <br/> Never seeking out the far off light <br/> Only digging deeper down to cower and hide <br/> She broke inside the self dug grave <br/> Shattered into a million sharp pieces <br/> Not whole anymore inside, just an empty shell <br/> Seeking out ways to numb the pain <br/> She never stoped to pick up those pieces <br/> Just kept moving while broken inside herself <br/> Others depended upon this broken but strong girl <br/> Pushing their problems onto her shoulders <br/> She took the weight and more for others <br/> No one even knowing she was dying inside <br/> She put on a whole show for people <br/> An emotional mask to cover the pain she felt <br/> She pushed herself to the edge of a cliff <br/> To many people needed her so she never jumped <br/> Two very special young lives needed her around <br/> She was a sheild for them <br/> Blocking alot of pain and fear <br/> So many things for a young girl to take on <br/> Broken but never stoping to rest <br/> She prayed some nights that she wouldn't wake up <br/> Never could she take her own life <br/> Always needing to just escape it all <br/> To stubborn to ask for any help <br/> Years of battle finally ended <br/> It took a clik of a gun to fully end <br/> She ran away and never came back <br/> Droped all that weight upon her shoulders <br/> Such a young girl should never bear <br/> But she was still broken inside <br/> Each sharp piece cutting her up <br/> Trying to fit them back together again <br/> Recieving some help along the way <br/> Scars and demons still have her <br/> Some pieces are still missing <br/> Not so broken anymore but not the same <br/> She pieced herself up differently <br/> Not the same as she was before <br/> The strength still has not left me <br/> I am still fighting <br/> I will never give up<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-45666766991366700082010-12-11T18:03:00.001-08:002010-12-11T18:03:50.037-08:00PretendedOn't pretend your someone else <br/> Never forget the real you <br/> I did <br/> Became someone i'm not <br/> Trying to go back is hard <br/> Finding pieces you've forgot <br/> Wandering how you lost yourself <br/> Where did i go wrong <br/> I blocked all that i was <br/> Trying to forget what made me strong <br/> Now your hateing me for changing <br/> But this is just the real me<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-2072891102056559872010-12-11T17:58:00.001-08:002010-12-11T17:58:55.677-08:00DarkPulling open the darkness <br/> Releasing the demon behind the black door <br/> Sweet demoms of evil thoughts <br/> Anger, Jealousy, Hatred, Lust... <br/> On and on they pour out the door <br/> Attacking my mind from within <br/> Were is my evil power of control now? <br/> The icy sheilds that can lock them out? <br/> Oh yeah i destroyed them hahaha <br/> I laugh at myself now <br/> Wouldn't feel this pain if you kept them <br/> Build fast you tormented mind <br/> Or you'll be fully beat down<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-20257327554787209252010-11-26T13:46:00.001-08:002010-11-26T13:46:25.580-08:00Pure PainWhy did you leave me pain? <br/> Now you just pop up <br/> A little here a little there <br/> I liked you better full on <br/> Now your just playing games <br/> Where is your raw power? <br/> The one that left me weak <br/> Like i had been thrown around <br/> Your picking at me now <br/> Ripping me apart piece by little piece <br/> Give me all you got<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-30676012976436362422010-11-26T13:43:00.001-08:002010-11-26T13:43:21.180-08:00Weary SoulA soulso beaten as mine <br/> You'd think it would give out <br/> But here i still stand <br/> Takeing every blow of my life <br/> Even takeing a few blows for others <br/> I keep going with every step <br/> Life has been hard <br/> But death is even harder <br/> If you read my pain <br/> See i crave an escape <br/> Don't think i'd end my own life <br/> I look for something more <br/> A peace of mind in this world <br/> A place rest my soul <br/> So i can give a few blows back<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-44107200421086644162010-11-26T13:39:00.001-08:002010-11-26T13:39:19.758-08:00down againI rip at my own soul <br/> Twisted Tormented <br/> I hate the feelings inside <br/> The mixture or pain and love <br/> What is wrong with my mind <br/> I'm hateing what you do to me <br/> My soul has taken to many blows <br/> I don't want to stand tall <br/> Feeling like i'll crash and fall<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-72103339160366868492010-11-26T13:36:00.001-08:002010-11-26T13:36:30.413-08:00Here i go againHere i go again <br/> Go again <br/> It's just one more sin <br/> I can make it through <br/> Prove to you <br/> All the things you can't do <br/> This is my life <br/> And all my strife <br/> So what is wrong with you <br/> Can't you see it through <br/> There is nothing left for you <br/> Here i go again <br/> It's just another sin <br/> Just the bottle on my lips <br/> Held with just my finger tips <br/> Drink it all <br/> Then watch it crash and fall <br/> Like i feel within <br/> Such twisted sin<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-59399026975985150912010-11-26T13:08:00.001-08:002010-11-26T13:08:59.818-08:00WingsSpread winga <br/> Feather light <br/> Softly sweet <br/> I fly <br/> Far away <br/> On wings <br/> A princess <br/> Locked up <br/> Inner demons <br/> Tortured aoul <br/> One knight <br/> Shared secrets <br/> Soul deep <br/> The princess <br/> Flew away <br/> Came back <br/> Can't leave <br/> Circling above <br/> Won't land <br/> Staying high <br/> More safe <br/> Never captured<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-89040039429626474982010-11-13T21:58:00.001-08:002010-11-13T21:58:36.688-08:00JealousyOld old old old write <br/> <br/> Staring at the screen <br/> Jealous rage <br/> Envy <br/> I just want to scream <br/> Twisted little thoughts <br/> Just want to slap the bitch <br/> Say mine mine mine <br/> I don't share <br/> So fuck off now <br/> But what would that do <br/> Start another fight <br/> Paybacks a bitch right <br/> So i had it coming <br/> Laughing at myself <br/> Over such a little thing <br/> Just your ex-fling <br/> I just need to scream <br/> But i keep my mouth shut <br/> Pretend i'm blind <br/> Cutting myself with the knife of love <br/> Saying it will be alight <br/> That i don't see it <br/> Slap down the jealous thought <br/> It did its work though <br/> Made rage take over me <br/> Envy over such a silly thing<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-19462638594641909092010-11-08T15:47:00.001-08:002010-11-08T15:47:31.853-08:00The Battle WithinRageing and screaming <br/> Deep down inside <br/> Smothering all my thoughts <br/> A damn battle within myself <br/> Being pulled apart <br/> A tug-a-war of my mind <br/> Breaking me into pieces <br/> A little insanity slipping out <br/> Flashes here and there <br/> Nothing makeing sense <br/> Can't hear myself think anymore <br/> Don't know what i want <br/> If the battle doesn't kill me <br/> I'll be all new <br/> Very different than before <br/> To hell with this two sided battle <br/> I'll add another too <br/> Now there's three <br/> I'm working both sides <br/> Bringing them to thier knees <br/> Watch me rise out of the rubble <br/> What use to be my mind <br/> The lone stranger that directs me <br/> My Winged Strength to carry on <br/> It's a whole other world within me<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-50785950788385039332010-11-08T14:15:00.001-08:002010-11-08T14:15:08.857-08:00Days After DayDay after day <br/> It's all the same <br/> Same thing everyday <br/> Just want to scream <br/> Breakout and do something new <br/> But i hold back <br/> What am i waiting for <br/> Letting everyday slip by me <br/> Time leaving me wasted days <br/> Got to do something new <br/> Hateing to break routine though <br/> Must always follow the rules <br/> Why the hell must i play this game <br/> It's my life to do what i want <br/> But what do i want?! <br/> Letting the days go by <br/> Day after day <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>- Kaylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11787574338695685646noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2880591532195499078.post-61358782037654796552010-11-07T20:45:00.001-08:002010-11-07T20:45:21.356-08:00LimitWe all have a limit <br/> How far we can go <br/> And then another <br/> For how far we should go <br/> I drink a beer or two every other day <br/> Three is my stoping point <br/> Get only a little buzz <br/> Have to slam them fast to get one <br/> But it's the rum i love <br/> My little weakness <br/> Love the firery warmth on my tounge <br/> Take a sip and hold it <br/> Feeling the tingleing spread in my mouth and throat <br/> Ahhhh and when i swallow you can feel the heat <br/> It's my awful weakness <br/> My secret drink i hide <br/> Only drink i'll loose myself in <br/> <div style='clear: both; 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